Day 3

I miss food. No no no, let me rephrase, I miss certain foods; this cleanse certainly allows me to eat. I have a meal a day and two snack but two shakes replace breakfast and dinner. Yet alas, I miss tacos. My co-worker came into my office today and told be about how she was having people over tonight and decided to do a taco bar. Her description made me salivate. AND she had Subway for lunch and I could smell that for hours later, no joke. What is it about cleansing that heightens my sense of smell, lol! I cruel irony.

You know what irks me? that you can never believe what you hear about healthy eating. For instance, you always hear people say never eat after 7PM or else when you go to bed it will sit in your stomach and just store into fat. But then a friend of mine said always eat something small before bed - like a piece of bread- or else during the night, your stomach goes into starvation mode and will start storing fat. So which is right? I've heard both sides and both make sense. But who's to say which is better for you? Then there's the debate about organic vs non organic... let's not go down that road. So many conflicting ideas, some days it feels overwhelming when you're just trying to do the right thing.

I haven't weighed myself so I don't know if I lost anything. Nothing feels different, but it's only day 3 so I wasn't expecting much. The headache was only on the first night, I haven't had one since, so that's good. I have already noticed the sustained energy, I no longer crash at the end of the day. Yet I had the WORST nights sleep last night. I tossed and turned all night. Still waiting for that heavenly cleanse sleep that is in my future!! lol

I am going to a musical this weekend with a girlfriend of mine and normally we have dinner before hand at my favorite place on the planet. I've been thinking about it all day, how I wish I could go there and have salmon spread and an apple beer. I even justified the salmon spread to myself. But ultimately I have not worked hard enough to deserve a splurge like that, which in turn makes me disappointed. Plus it's probably not the best thing to have right before my first cleanse day. I'm nervous about Sunday, but only because I've done cleanses before in which my blood sugar drops and it's been miserable. This cleanse feels different simply because I've never loaded up my body with so much nutrients before.

Sorry, no deep thought in this one, or topic for that matter. I realized, cleansing is lonely and boring when you do it alone. I need to recruit a cleansing buddy. I need a commiserater. lol

-N